7 Day Weed-cation
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this ascii art is from emoji combos
I decided a couple days ago to put away my vapes, edibles, dry herb - all of it, for like a week or so.
Ugh. I wanna cave so damn bad. My mind isn't ready for sobriety. The urge to toke off a vape pen and play third strike all day is strong af. Doesn't really help that I may be (reluctantly) returning to work after taking some time. Reality is the last thing I want to face.
Bring sick at the same time also sucks. Like, yesterday, I thought to myself "why not grab one of those sketch Cycling Frogs, they always dry up your sinuses." That shit works pretty well, sure, but then I realized I could take Dayquil like a normal person who doesn't need copious amounts of edibles to recover from a cold.
My brain feels weird, too. Not being able to artificially change the way I think and act doesn't feel right. I'm feeling feelings but they're not the right feelings that I want to feel right now.
Here's to 5 more days of this, I guess.
Fuck, need to apologize to everyone for being afraid of replying to messages and emails again. Idk why but interacting with people makes my brain feel like it's on fire, weed or no weed.
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